Damaged….??

Each day passing by

I hear some cracks creaking

Weakening something

I wonder….

Do I even have left something

Never ever I was ready

But the world came on crashing

Brought a zillion feelings

Most of them causing distortions

I thought they will go Or be tackled with

As I mature and gain experience

Except it became worse with each passing moment

Chaos was so frequent

That it became the normal

Escaping from it so nice

That I started living in imaginations

Putting off everything and everybody

Being out made me anxious

Times were there when hope was almost in my grasps

But when has hope lasted for long

Giving me a slip each time

Making me bleed without a wound

Losing compassion for my own self

I am playing a different ballad every day

The only time it stops, is when sleep takes over

That also never comes easy, always brings its own trials.

Just like the poem, incomplete remains my state

Where will I be led I have no aim

Will there be freedom or eternal cage?

By Rensaisei

Heist!

A heist was planned

By those eyes

The moment they

Laid on me

All was captured

Holding me just

By the stare

The glances settled

To create a fire

The touch that was felt

Without even lifting a finger

Settled deep

To lit the passion

The distance yet not travelled

Largest block between us

The tension was immense

Whenever he came towards us

Me and my heart

Both flung and led around

Sometimes dizzy

Drunk on him

His alluring scent

Gone to my noggin

Sweeping me off my feet

Gripping me

Strangling me

With just a smile

Goosebumps appeared

Just from the imaginations

What will happen..

When the deed will happen?

The dream a far sighted reality

A dream waiting to turn to reality

With desires burning up

Killing from inside

A wait for the perpetrator

To come back

For another heist

Taking me whole this time

Not leaving with a sinful and unfulfilled greed.

By Rensaisei

Black, white and gray!

Fumbling over the line

Between the classic and the modern

Between the revolt and the disciplined

Between the hues and the blues

Between the forgotten and the remembered

Between the needs and the wants

Between the free and caged

Between the silence and rage

Between the fire and cold

Between the distant and close

Between the time and space

Between the heart and the brain

Between the black and white

The gray dwells

Reigning the world from inside

On its own rhythm

On its own music

Most following the stereotypes

Some the vintage, the classic

Some revelatory rebels

Some unconventional brats

In some Grows a powerful being

In others Dies a remorseful one

All in the ranges of

Black, white and gray

Make up the array

No one can decide

Without seeing the

Discrepancies in the lines

The invisible, the foggy

Hidden under the ashes and the smoke

Insanity and sanity crumble

To fuse and give rise to the divine.

Unknown to the naked eyes

Yet vulnerably visible to everyone’s eyes.

By Rensaisei

Anxiety

Can hardly be explained but only felt, a joke to some while a reality full of struggle for others!!

.

The waves of our anxious mind

Travel to our outer cores

Maneuvering our every fibre

One action is enough

For this wave to surge

Everything comes crawling out

With no warning call

Everyday it happens

Understated its presence

Churns out our stomach

Making us nauseous

Only a few understand

Our allies, our companions

In this fight

The anxiety grows stronger

Turning and changing forms

From msging to calling to disappearing

From meeting to hiding to hibernating

Shaking of hands and numbness in arms

From sleepless nights to

No energy to get out of bed

Unable to be still,

Unable to concentrate..

Arising from the insignificant of things

And building into a hurricane

It makes some days full of explosions and pain.

By Rensaisei

Layering!!

Quick to surrender

Quick to refresh

The confusion of my heart

Creates disturbances in my soul

Brain gets back seated

Worries takeon the driving seat

Then at a turnabout

Worries disappear

Craziness unleashed

Quick change in tempo

Quick change in attitude

Like a personality flip

Learning to live with

Anxiety and the crazed

Layers and layers

On top and beneath

Various emotions and faces

Like a play of hide and seek

Its a roller coaster ride

The inside of my being!!

By Rensaisei

Until next time!!

Meeting each day

Or after a while

Some sentiments

Caress us every-time

On precipice of goodbyes

Our hearts become fragile

Separating again

For a day, a week,

A month or a year

Each frame makes

Us anxious and loose our mind

Overcoming this

A battle fought

Each time

Intimacy the weapon

The eye contacts,

Holding hands

Hugs lasting

Quite a while

The kisses and

Assurances that come

With all these deeds

Leave us with

Hope, energy

Power to wait patiently

Until the next time!

By Rensaisei

Paradoxes!!

In this world

Your and mine

Paradoxes reside

Everywhere

Our lives linked

In a twisted way

Some are messed up

Some are dancing

Some have rosy hues

Some deep dark pitch

Some enjoy leisure

Some live in pressure

Some want to run

Some are silent still

Some are calm storms

Some are raging volcanoes

Possibilities infinite

Restricted, restrained

Unleashed, unstrained

Stratified yet simple

Simple yet stratified

In this world

Even amongst the absolutes

Paradoxes reside!

The cognate link

Of our lives!!

By Rensaisei

Love a wretched thing……!!

Love a wretched thing…it instils life in people

Smile on people

Gives heart its rhythm

Gives soul its goodness

Brings a wretched person back from hell!!

Now that person has to live again….

Hell it is without the one you love

Hell away from hell

The other end of the world

The other side of the coin

One side you have love

Other is agony

No warnings

No signboards

No shoutouts

No barricades

Agony and love invite

And we let them

As it is the most beautiful form of hell to ever exist.

That’s you My Love!